Where or what is the clear
light? How to recognize it
The clear light can be seen as a maximum
amount of information and of energy, a kind of bombardment of information from all
directions, so condensed and intense that the separation between you and it can become
invisible and "you" stop being "you" and become one with it. Of
course, this bombardment is going on all the time, but we have encapsulated ourselves
within strict boundaries that keep us safe from that "other side". This
formation of boundaries, this strict formation of barriers, classifications, categories
and banishments forms what is you... it is you!
In order to receive more information, in order
to let the infinite flow of information all around you flow into you and become you, your
inner posture has to change. The basic attention posture of the Being has to be
transformed. Through language, socialization and other forms of conditioning, we have been
trained to discard enormous amounts of information in order to reduce the amount that we
have to deal with. Even though we face this great maelstrom of vibrations and forms, we
reduce everything to easily classifiable shapes and ranges. We didn't start out doing
this. We were trained to do it. So now we must train ourselves to open up. Instead of
discarding, we will accept. When we start to do this, more information flows in and, with
it, a great previously invisible energy.
SILENCE IS FULL OF INFORMATION
ENERGY HIDES IN SILENCE
In order to hear the silence, to truly delve
into it and explore it, we have to learn to make a special effort. This is the second
conscious effort of which Gurdjieff spoke. The first one accurs in the moving center. This
one occurs in the intellectual center. It involves a shifting of attention and a change in
the way that attention works. It is not automatic and it won't happen overnight. You may
have it for a time and then lose it for years. Then it may or may not come back.
The text and Experiments in this chapter are
designed to lead you to an exploration of the Clear Light and to a space where you can
make this special effort. It isn't somewhere else. It isn't in the future or in the past.
It is now. But you have to come back to NOW in order to hear it, see it, feel it.
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Experiment 1: A Conversation with
Go to a very quiet place: a forest, a quiet
street, a garden, a beach, etc.
Quiet your mind through any process that you
find effective. Close your eyes. Breathe deeply and quietly.
Listen closely for the start of the
conversation. Let the silence begin to talk.
When you hear the first message from the
silence (which can come in the form of any of the little or big sounds that you have
around you) internalize it, make it yours, allow yourself to understand it in a very deep
Now respond. Talk out loud and respond to
what the silence has said to you.
Now be quiet again and wait for an answer.
Wait as long as necessary until the answer becomes clear.
Again internalize and swallow this answer
Respond once again.
This Experiment can go on for a long time.
Start with 5 to 10 minutes. Later you can decide to prolong it.
Experiment 2: Instructions from the
Go to the same place that you went to for
Experiment 1 (or very similar if the same place is unavailable).
Stand up straight and breath quietly and
deeply for a few minutes.
Now listen to the silence very closely for
several minutes. Listen until you hear a distint instruction for how you will move your
hand. Don't stop listening until you KNOW what you will do.
Now do it. It should be something small and
When you are finished, thank the void and
come back to the initial position. Listen closely again for what you will do with your
Continue doing this for 5 or 6 times, 7 at
the most. At the end say thank you and leave.
The whole experiment should not take more
than 15 to 20 mins at the most. If you find that it's taking longer, revise the way you
interpret the words "instruction", "listening" and "void".
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If we see all actions as "coming from
somewhere" or being "caused by something", then we can still distinguish
among them by saying "where do they come from?" or "what are they caused
by?" In the most general terms, we will pose three distinct possibilities:
They are caused by external influences
They are caused by internal influences, habits
They are caused by the void, the nothingness.
It is the third kind of action that we are
looking for... but which we can't "find". It's not "outside" or
"inside"! Once we think we have it, it is certainly gone... although there may
be traces of its passing. In these traces, we may find clues as to how it came about and
what it "felt like" when it was here. These clues may help us later to
"allow it" to happen. Ultimately we don't "make it happen"... if we
did it would be "ours" and if it is "ours" then it's not the true
silence, the void. So the best and only thing we can hope for is to develop the ability to
"allow it" to occur, to not block its passing through us. Maybe it will become
our friend and visit more often. Maybe.